The Truth

Hey ya'll.
So I've been eating...
And I've been eating all day everyday...
And I'm fat
I'ts like I don't even care anymore...
But I do care.

I care when I stand in front of the mirror
I care when I step on the scale
I care when I see skinny stick girls
I care when I read all your blogs
I care when I've finished 3 brownies and I'm reaching for the last one

I'm afraid to step on the scale
I'm afraid I have an eating disorder (over eating)
I'm afraid I will be fat forever
I'm afraid I'll never reach my goals
I'm afraid I will always hate myself
I'm afraid of never being good enough for him or for you or for me...

I need something to get me i the zone again!!!

HELP!!!

<3Halley