OOOk so maybe i need a little motivation

It's my dad's birthday!

 That means that I had to go to the GROCERY store to buy ingredients to bake him his favorite cake.... I need to stay away from places with food. Didnt eat until about 5 pm but i stopped and the barns and noble cafe... 1

1 double chocolate brownie
honestly one of the best brownies ever. but not worth the pounds
 a banana 
aaaand i licked the batter off the spatula i used to mix the cake batter with... wtf 


HELP! Halley

Yes Ma'am!

Very short one tonight.

Haven't updated to 2 days cause... well just because I suck at life.

In other news, my mom just told me to stop eating!

Thanks mom but ok! :)

Feeling the love! Halley

The Less Planning The Better!

Good morning skinny bitches,

I say that s a complement ;D

Last night I was thinking about my next fast, trying to plan it out, and it dawned on me! I realized that every time I plan out my fast I'm putting a TON of pressure on myself. I've never done good under pressure. Always end up cracking (obviously). 

So I've decided that I'm not gonna have an end date... just go until... I don't know. Maybe until I can't get my fat ass out of bed or until I can't get out of a situation that involves eating with other people? Something like that maybe. But no strict plans! But I'm gonna start tomorrow... I could start today cause I haven't eaten yet but I like to start on mondays... I don't know why. The weekend is just a weird starting time. I'm a bit ocd I know... but I think most of us with ED's are right?

I hate labeling myself. I mean I say I have an ED but then I look at myself and say... you're too fat. The only ED you have is over eating you fat pig! It's true... it gets pretty bad.

Like yesterday....I'll just do a list

Late lunch:

Olga's cup of peasant soup and bread

Dinner:

Ramen noodles w/ green beans

King size almond chocolate bar (my weakness right now)

Late night snacking:

Grapes

1/2 apple

pancake

egg on toast

I think thats everything...

Ugh I was feeling hungry and my tummy was all like rawrr blah blah feeed mee... then I typed all that shit out and me and my tummy remembered.

I have a lot to do today. Dishes, laundry, and whatever else my step dad can't do because he works... so do me and my mom but we still do this shit.

Anyway, maybe I'll eat today maybe I won't. All depends on how busy I keep myself

I love my 48 readers <3

Skinny thoughts all day :)

 

Weekend munchies

Bleh Bleh Bleh

Hello!
So my friend stay over every weekend, but had to go home eary for her brothers birthday.

We always eat junk food... and a lot. But this weekend I had restraint, I didn't even realize it but I just felt sick when I ate.
 :) That makes me happy

I need to come up with another fasting schedule... I'll think on up tonight and post it tomorrow!
 Nighty Night

Maybe monay..

Sorry I didn't post this morning. I was running late for school.

Anyway, I'm in a funk... I only had a pb and j sandwich. I wish I didn't feel guilty about everything I eat.

My friends coming over now so I can't be blogging about ed. She already suspects... :\


<3 Halley

A look in my ED head

I had a lot of food today! Well it seems like a lot and it feels like a lot. But to an average person who eats normally and had no ED it wasn't a lot at all.

You don't care what I ate and I don't want to have to think about it and wallow in self hatred.

I spent an hour dancing though. I planed on half an hour then just kept saying 1 more song. Gotta love Just Dance's Just sweat game.

But I feel disgusting and fat so im going to bed.

Tomorrow will be better.

I DON'T NEED FOOD
I DON'T NEED FOOD
I DON'T NEED FOOD
I DON'T NEED FOOD
I DON'T NEED FOOD!!!

<3 Halley

Starting over...again

Good morning!

Well, due to the recent fight with my mom, I still going to fast but more carefully. I'm not gonna do an (mom voice) "outrageously stupid" water fast. I decided. For apple slices through out the day (from one apple). Juice in the morning. Water water water. Then soup at hand for dinner. Unless I'm able to go out at night...then nothing. :) Sounds good to me.

Figured out how to follow blogs! Woo! Now who are you???

There's no school today again! Wtf?! Can you say blizzard 2013?! It didnt even snow here until the day after Christmas and now it never stops! Omg am I seriously talking about the weather? You don't care about the weather. If you do go read a weather blog! :)

I must be bored... gonna go play just dance! :D Easy fun way to burn lots of calories fast!

Since I have nothing to do I'll probably update often today.

Think thin

<3 Halley