Good morning!
So all weekend I've been eating my ass off and planning on starting a water and tea fast today. I haven't decided how long I want it to be. The longest I've gone was two days. I could've gone longer but my mom wanted to order dinner and watch movies and I couldn't deny her because she never ever wants to do stuff with me. And I don't know if its just me but after I have one tiny bite of anything.... I can't stop. Then of coarse I hate myself until I starve myself until my stomach hurts. This vicious cycle is worse than the pain of hunger.
Anyway, my mom wants to go to Olive Garden because she has the day off work and I don't have school today.... what to do. If I stay I home I eat out of boredom. If I go out she'll be suspicious it I don't order anything but water. So maybe I need to try the move your food around and make it look like you ate it... This could go badly.
But under no circumstances will a calorie enter my body today.... The first day of a fast is always the hardest. But this too shall pass :)
I plan on keeping busy with homework and laundry... my closet is almost empty! Yikes! I don't mind doing laundry I just hate hanging up clothes. :P
Oh and I broke my phone last night....
Hoping for a better day than the last
Will update again soon.
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