Good Evening!
Hi! So this is my very first blog! Ever! So let me introduce myself and explain what the heck I'm doing here!
My name is Halley. I'm 18. I live in Michigan, hopefully not for much longer. I'm currently in cosmetology school (hair, make up nails, etc.) I absolutely love it. Hair styling's been a passion of mine since high school. And I'm pro Ana. If you don't know what that is then I'm not sure how you found yourself reading my blog. Anyway this is my short story with Ana.
When I was younger, I was always very small and thin. Always getting compliments and older women commenting on how they wish they had my body... which to this day I don't understand... I guess they wanted the body of an 8 year old? Who knows. Anyway, I never had a problem with weight until I hit puberty around age 13. Around that time I began to become mushy and pudgy. Bleh! It wasn't until this last August that it got to the point where I couldn't look at myself anymore. I was disgusted by myself. I was never interested in the photos of "healthy" girls. I wanted to be skinny. So skinny I could feel my bones. That's when I started reading pro ana sites and doing a fast here and there but never really getting anywhere. I found myself actually eating more than usual. Or maybe it just seemed that way because I knew I wasn't allowed to eat. So after months and months of failure I decided that maybe if I had more things to do it would keep my mind off food. That's one of the reasons why I'm here. I've read a lot of other pro ana blogs on here and they help a lot. I would also be grateful to have the support of a few readers. This would be easier knowing there's people to help me along this journey. I could help you too. :)
That's all for this time.
My stats:
Start weight: 125 lbs
Current weight: Around 120 lbs (I haven't weight in a while :\ I'm scared)
Goal weight: 95 lbs (probably keep going after that...bad idea?)
When I was younger, I was always very small and thin. Always getting compliments and older women commenting on how they wish they had my body... which to this day I don't understand... I guess they wanted the body of an 8 year old? Who knows. Anyway, I never had a problem with weight until I hit puberty around age 13. Around that time I began to become mushy and pudgy. Bleh! It wasn't until this last August that it got to the point where I couldn't look at myself anymore. I was disgusted by myself. I was never interested in the photos of "healthy" girls. I wanted to be skinny. So skinny I could feel my bones. That's when I started reading pro ana sites and doing a fast here and there but never really getting anywhere. I found myself actually eating more than usual. Or maybe it just seemed that way because I knew I wasn't allowed to eat. So after months and months of failure I decided that maybe if I had more things to do it would keep my mind off food. That's one of the reasons why I'm here. I've read a lot of other pro ana blogs on here and they help a lot. I would also be grateful to have the support of a few readers. This would be easier knowing there's people to help me along this journey. I could help you too. :)
That's all for this time.
My stats:
Start weight: 125 lbs
Current weight: Around 120 lbs (I haven't weight in a while :\ I'm scared)
Goal weight: 95 lbs (probably keep going after that...bad idea?)
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