My Fat Ass

I'm such a fat failure!

To be completely honest I hate myself inside and out today.

First I left school early because I couldn't do anything. Just had a horrible mind set from the moment I woke up.

I off course broke my fast and went to the store! The fucking store! Me, my fat ass, and my 8 dollars got out of the car and waddled into the store. Wanna know what I got? At first I wanted a thing of soup to go or whatever its called. It's only 90 calories. But I saw the deli and walked right over to the fried chicken! Yes, I'm serious. So I got 4 chicken strips, a mound of potato wedges and a dinner roll. None of it was good. I didn't eat it all but it was still a ton and I felt like shit.

Of course I didn't stop there. I never do, I had 3 pieces of chocolate, hot coco with whip cream, and as im sitting here typing down all the disgusting food I ate today I'm eating a bowl of cap'n crunch berries w/ skm milk. Not that the skim milk makes it ok.

Anyway, point is, I'm a fat ass and I'm having a horrible time with fasting! I'm gonna restart tomorrow. :\ I wish I didn't have to. I wish tomorrow was day 3. But it's my falt I'm back to day 1.


Depressed and hating myself, Halley
Hope youre all doing better than I am.