YES! YES! YES!

Is this my first blog that talks about actual success???

Well I weighed myself today... lost 3 lbs! I'm now an even 120! I know I'm a little too happy about this but at least I know I can do it. Thanks mom!

I wanna tell her about this but I want her to see it for herself first.

So yesterday I went to the library and I got this book called wintergirls. Probably one of the best books I've ever read. It's pro ana and just all around great, totally relateable. Is that a word? If it is spell check told me I misspelled it. Anyway, yeah it's very good considering  finished it in a day. Should've read slower or something cause once I'm done blogging I have nothing to diverge my mind away from food. 

Currently running on lunch. About 5 -7 bites of a greek salad (no olives no onions).

Yesterday I had a melt down cause me and my friend got breakfast at mcdonalds (just over 500 cals). When I got home I looked in the mirror. Fat face small eyes. Fat face small eyes. Fat face small eyes. Ew. So I didnt eat until lunch today. After I weight myself I considered not going to lunch but my grandparents have been asking me out for months and I've been avoiding for months so I had to go. I was evil and brought home the rest of my salad for my mother. Maybe all do that everytime I go out but make it like pasta and fatty fat fatness like that. "Here mom! I brought this too you because I'm too fat and ugly to eat it! Enjoy!" :)

Am I a horrible daughter or what? Oh well.

Why do I feel like throwing up? There's hardly anything in me....

I hope I do.

Shrinking by the minute
<3 Halley